i'm depressed beyond all reason, i still have to study and shower...i dont really wanna deal with all of this shit...men treat me like shit and i just wanna get away from it. if this is love, then i dont want it...EVER. if you're gonna treat me like shit, then dont talk to me. i get enough of it and i dont need more. i dont need more reasons to think of hurting myself more than i already do.
on another note, i will be layin down again...hopefully all night now. i also wont be online tomorrow, or at least try not to be online. hopefully i can go shoppin right after exams, cuz i need it and i'll get to see lonnie and aimee and burke...and matt too i hope.
winter's official day is tomorrow. wheee...prolly no white xmas again this year...argh! i have my calc midterm tomorrow and i'm gonna fail. over 2 hours in tutoring and it's still in one ear, out the other.
but, dont worry if i'm not online tomorrow or most of the weekend. i have to catch up on buyin stuff for my family since i havent done any shoppin yet...
i'm so tired of all this bullshit with men. i'm so tired of all the drama, the lies, the pain...it's never worth it in the end. how can i still be taken as the fuckin fool when i know better?
...why must these thoughts exist?
