Mikaela AKA Kae's blog: "Just Blogging"

Warped & Twisted Harsh words & violent blows Hidden secrets nobody knows Eyes are open, hands are fisted Deep inside I'm warped & twisted So many tricks & so many lies Too many whens & too many whys Nobody's special, nobody's gifted I'm just me, warped & twisted Sleeping awake & choking on a dream Listening loudly to a silent scream Call my mind, the number's unlisted Lost in someone so warped & twisted On my knees, alive but dead Look at the invisible blood I've bled I'm not gone, my mind has drifted Don't expect much, I'm warped & twisted Burnt out, wasted, empty, & hollow Today's just yesterday's tomorrow The sun died out, the ashes sifted I'm still here, warped & twisted

For once I have hit my rating limit for the day. Can I ask why in the hell there is now a rating limit? What's the fun in that if you can only rate so much a day. I think it's shiity. I think that they need to get rid of this rating limit crap. I rate peoples pics no mater what. I know that if people are viewing my pics, I'd like for them to rate them while they are at. So how can I go looking at peoples pictures with out rating them. What, go look at them and then come back the next day and rate them. That's pointless. Please get rid of the rating limits. I understand that they are probably there because of some people that all they do is rate all day long to bump up in points. I'm not, and half the people out there are not. You should limit those rating 24/7 only. Omg this sucks ass. I have to wait until after midnight so that I can go start rating people again. URGGGGGGG

I always hit too hard ...play too rough ...take things too far I never say the right things ...do things right ...feel the same way I don't always say what I want ...cook what you want ...do things I should ...always give you what you want ...look the same as when we met ...always know how to handle certain things I make mistakes ...bad judgements ...things difficult I get moody ...too emotional ...depressed easily ...distracted I'm never good enough ...right ...it I could be better ...smarter ...prettier ...a lot of things But I'm not. I'm just me. I wear my heart on my shoulder I want it when you don't I cry too much I think too much I worry a lot I push when I shouldn't I have changed, but not all the things I should No matter what I do it never seems to be good enough for you. I do more for you than you do for me. Am I the only one that sees?

I'm getting tired of rating 10's for everyone and rating more than 20 of their pics and them hardly rating any of mine. Those who want to look but not rate suck. These types are going to get me to take certain pics of and stop rating people.

So called friends.... Current mood: nauseated Category: Friends Okies well this goes out to all those so called friends. A lot of people claim to be my friend. 90% of them are truely not. I just recently moved from Florida to Virginia and I think only 4 people have talked to me since then. Those would be Barbie, Rhona, Ashley and Abby. Everyone else hasn't said one word about me moving or really even one word. Not that I really care because it just goes to show who are true friends and who are not. I'm used to having the so called friends that only call you when they need something or want me to do something for them. Those people I don't talk to anymore. I wonder why. The thing that sucks is I have recently realized that I don't seriously have anyone to talk to. Not about certain things going on in my life or have happend in the past. It sucks. I hold more in than I should. The only person that I can talk to about anything is Steve. Yea that's great because he's my fiance' and I should be able to talk to him about anything. But it's nice when you have a person from the outside of the relationship to talk to. I don't know maybe I'm just rambling. Sorry for those who actually read this crap. Oh and for all the crazy headlines...It's a way to see who's really paying attention and who's not. Again the only people who notice are the 4 I listed above