It’s amazing isn’t it how the human brain works, or more correctly in the case of my ex, doesn’t work. Let me explain this situation real quick and let y’all decide whether it is me who is fucked up or if he really is just as messed up as I think he is.
Ok, we met back in January and had one of those instant can’t explain it connections. We were just supposed to have a one night fling (yeah drunkenness gets the better of us all sometimes) and I was content with that. After I left the house the next morning I was more than ok with the fact that I would not being seeing him again. However, later that afternoon I got a phone call from him saying he got my number from his niece (my lil bitch) and wanted to talk to me later if that was ok. I said sure, so when he called later he came over blah blah blah. To make a long story shorter here he didn’t leave my house except to go back home to Michigan every other weekend or so and to work everyday for the next four or so months.
Now in this amount of time he texted me every day all day, called me all the time when he was away from me. We went out and did stupid shit together. We took a trip to Kentucky to see my family for Easter. We were what anyone would have believed was in love with one another and I know that was the way it felt for us.
Then he left here to go back to Michigan to spend the time in jail he had to serve. Once he was gone he slept with another girl and then turned himself and did his jail time. I talked to him at least once a week and got a few letters a week from him while he was in jail. We still had plans for him to come back down here when he got out, those never changed while he was away, lol. Then he got released and begged me to come up there for the first week he was out because he couldn’t leave there. Not quite 2 weeks after he was released I made the 7 hour drive to go spend a couple of days with him. I was treated horribly while I was there by his family and was told all about his “girlfriend” he had hooked up with.
Ok, so I left on Tues and came back home. I talked to him a few times on the phone in the next few days. Then Sat I got a call from him with lots of screaming in the background and him begging me to come get him. So at midnight I picked up my lil bitch and we set off on the 7 hour journey to bring him home. We got back here and everything was fine for a week - then he told me I wasn’t desirable and moved in with his dad.
Well, 4 days after that we took a trip to Toledo to see a concert. It’s been 2 months now that he left my house . . . However, things haven’t changed all that much.
Since he chose to lave me he has gotten back together with the girl he hooked up with in Michigan - they are together despite the fact that he lives here. He called me two weeks after we split up and asked me if I wanted to work for his dad and make some extra money - which had me in vehicle and on job sites with him for up to 14 hours a day. He still came here for late night visits (yeah booty calls) but would leave after and go back to his dads. Since then though he still texts me all the time - all night last night as a matter of fact. When he wants to talk to someone he calls me. When he is horny he comes here - and now he stays all night again. We just went on a trip to Southern Indiana for my birthday to see an STP concert (which his gf didn’t know he went with me). He’s told me several times he loves me and cares about me and misses me and that no one cares for him like I do.
Now, here is where it gets all fucked up - the past week or so he has been sending me texts meant for his girlfriend saying how much he loves her and is happy and not to worry he isn’t leaving her. He says these are by mistake but I am not saved in his phone (so she doesn’t know he talks to me) so he has to type in my number to send them to me making mistake pretty hard. I told him I get it I don’t think he is coming back to me, but think it’s fucked up he is doing this - am I wrong?
I know I allow him to do this, I take the blame for my part of it - however isn’t he just as fucked up? Or am I just insane?!
