well in less then 24 hour my birthday is here and i am so depressed because once again the women that gave birth to me won"t be here ... it not i don't know her it that she had chosen not to be here for me and it is so hard i am turn 30 and another year pass by with out her i am not perfect i have done somethings to her but how could a mother turn her back on her child like she has to me and it is hard because i love her so much and the pain is so unbearable it is not even fun and i had behind mask of happiness so no one can see the pain that happens ever year so my only birthday wish is for my mom to tell me she loves me but gods that well never happen ........... sometimes i ask myself if she has ever really loved me at all and it is prove fact that she has not ... Well everyone I am going to go for now .............
