Reaching out for a hand
that isnt willing to be grasped
giving your heart to one that
shares not the same
too scared to share your deepest
thoughts and feelings
Yet not able to explain in words
that they can understand
coming from the right and
they seeing the left
situations of too many that
he can't overcome and cope
Being the wrong one
at the wrong time
Comparing yourself to those
he loves and loved
Just to be heard and seen
in some sort of fashion
getting his negative attn is all
i seem to get..where and why
where did i go wrong
and who am i to him
why doesnt he see me..as the
one he saw and met before
I am the same..no different...
life, love, hate, and detest have changed
i have to overcome this battle
for he has moved on
Making it clear his heart has no
interest in developing within mine
and yet i seem not to be able
to let go as he has done to me
His happiness is what makes his world
his time his life and his love his
interests shoud be what i see
as an importance..
I must be selfless and push him off
I must feed him lies of how i
want nothing. How i want his life
to go on without me
I dont ever want to be another reminder
I have hurt him enough but more so
i have given him false hope
he lost happiness with me
i let my wall down and out
Now i shall rebuild it and pretend
i have happiness without him
and let him go on with his
.::May 2002 PinkyJo::.
