As I sit up on those cold dark nights and stare at my son who sleeps so soundly and I think about what a precious lil gift that God has given me I think to myself, what did I do to deserve such a wonderful gift. I take a glance at my lil girls who sleep so soundly and just wonder where there innocene comes from and I think to myself if only I was still so young and full of life. I stress the daily problems that every adult faces and I just hope that when my children are grown and raising their children it will be some what easier on them and none of them will have to life life the way that I have lived mine and that they will not have to bury one of their children or sit back helpless while their husbands suffers from a disease that the doctors cannot give a sure answere on wheither or not he will come home from the hospital the next time. And if he will get the treatments that he needs before its too late.
