i wish i was more patient
then i wouldnt have to wory about my mind
its driving me crazy
im crazy for a guy and he knows who he is
and i really need to stop wondering
i need to start taking my own advise
take things slow and not rush but i think its the fact that im excited about him so much that i just want him so bad and it makes me envy his friends. so what do i do? i tell my friends to see where things go.. and here i am... wanting more but at the same time he is doing wut i would be doing or telling a friend.. weird or what. i love the fact that we got the friendship thing and that is the best saftynet possible. im really hoping of getting back behind the wheel so i can see him more offten that way it is equal....
here is some advise to myself that i tell my friends.. patients is a virtue jen and the race is long and slow but be strong and keep moving ahead, dont look back or give up. the in u give up u will find that u were so much more closer than u thought......
i think i just want more because im jelous of happy couples walking hand in hand and i walk with no one in my hand. i miss the romance, i mis he flowers. i miss the wispers. i miss the kissing. i miss the making out. i miss sex, i miss the inspiration for me to write poetry, i miss feeling whole, i miss the glances and smiling at eachother, i miss being in a relatiosnhip caring about someone.....
those who have loved me and lost have told me or a friend of mine that im one in a million. im the dimond in the rough and such a great catch. im working so hard to better myself. i have my anger issues controled and laid to rest. i have my life in order and pretty much set for the long haul. i am just missing a real companion, lover, friend.
