gpitbull's blog: "m"

This will be the only thing I write that will speak Unto my friends and show them all how I am weak The bigger puzzle a small percentage of me A small percentage of me that just wants me to leave That percentage of me that just wants me to bleed Somebody has to understand cause we're all just human beings A small percentage of me that will never become a man Cause a bigger percentage of me rarely ever meets a man Ain't that hard to understand, people always say they grown These same people will never admit they're wrong But I'll be the first to say it "I'm wrong" To say I deserve, I was wrong all along I don't deserve to have friends, never wanted them either But if given the choice, I would step up to lead them Away from this hell, away from this disgrace Everyday I've shown my face I've grown so ashamed Of myself, my friends, who don't know why they came How dare they feel like they need to be entertained Most of us wanna know why life is this way But ignore God when he has something to say There are plenty of questions, I don't deserve to have an answer Like why those important to me end up with cancer Why is it, everybody feels like they deserve respect Why the girl, I thought the love of my life switched up and left To let people know how I felt my feelings crept And still to this day, no one knows of the pain thats being dealt Cause my pride won't let them see the anger in my eyes And my smile won't ackowledge the inner me that is crying I do everyone a favor by keeping those around me smiling Everyday I say that I'm happy I'm steady lying And I'm not, at least till my cousins live better than me Until my babies won't have to see what I've seen I'ma be the best damn father that I can be And my children gone be even better parents than me Until I can give a woman the utmost respect she really needs And finally get my mother that house, right near the beach Until I can show God, he really is my father Until I can beat the hell out a nigga who beats his daughter Until I can show the world it's never about the money And show these clowns I wasn't meant to be funny I apologize, this is my only time to be selfish I'm leaving everybody, my heart is where I left it It never meant nothing to me, I won't protect it I need to be closer to God whom I've neglected Just give me my music, and a world to myself So I can talk to you alone with nobody else And for a couple days they might think that I'm crazy My own mother won't even recognize I'm her baby This selfish phase, will be the time that I change me So all the people I know will never want to replace me And thoThis will be the only thing I write that will speak Unto my friends and show them all how I am weak The bigger puzzle a small percentage of me A small percentage of me that just wants me to leave That percentage of me that just wants me to bleed Somebody has to understand cause we're all just human beings A small percentage of me that will never become a man Cause a bigger percentage of me rarely ever meets a man Ain't that hard to understand, people always say they grown These same people will never admit they're wrong But I'll be the first to say it "I'm wrong" To say I deserve, I was wrong all along I don't deserve to have friends, never wanted them either But if given the choice, I would step up to lead them Away from this hell, away from this disgrace Everyday I've shown my face I've grown so ashamed Of myself, my friends, who don't know why they came How dare they feel like they need to be entertained Most of us wanna know why life is this way But ignore God when he has something to say There are plenty of questions, I don't deserve to have an answer Like why those important to me end up with cancer Why is it, everybody feels like they deserve respect Why the girl, I thought the love of my life switched up and left To let people know how I felt my feelings crept And still to this day, no one knows of the pain thats being dealt Cause my pride won't let them see the anger in my eyes And my smile won't ackowledge the inner me that is crying I do everyone a favor by keeping those around me smiling Everyday I say that I'm happy I'm steady lying And I'm not, at least till my cousins live better than me Until my babies won't have to see what I've seen I'ma be the best damn father that I can be And my children gone be even better parents than me Until I can give a woman the utmost respect she really needs And finally get my mother that house, right near the beach Until I can show God, he really is my father Until I can beat the hell out a dude who beats his daughter Until I can show the world it's never about the money And show these clowns I wasn't meant to be funny I apologize, this is my only time to be selfish I'm leaving everybody, my heart is where I left it It never meant nothing to me, I won't protect it I need to be closer to God whom I've neglected Just give me my music, and a world to myself So I can talk to you alone with nobody else And for a couple days they might think that I'm crazy My own mother won't even recognize I'm her baby This selfish phase, will be the time that I change me So all the people I know will never want to replace me And those that get to know me, will know I'm truely their homie And stop messing with the evil, cause they know that they phonie And I can get away from a past that's so lonely It felt like it was good, but that's because I was hungry So when my selfish phase is over, and I've loved myself That lonesome, angry period beside myself A new born child will break bread with everybody And I'll be more supportive, and respectful to peoples hobbie's I'll make it to the top without stepping on anybody And I won't put myself over another bodyse that get to know me, will know I'm truely their homie And stop messing with the evil, cause they know that they phonie And I can get away from a past that's so lonely It felt like it was good, but that's because I was hungry So when my selfish phase is over, and I've loved myself That lonesome, angry period beside myself A new born child will break bread with everybody And I'll be more supportive, and respectful to peoples hobbie's I'll make it to the top without stepping on anybody And I won't put myself over another body

We've all heard sayings such as "Use it or lose it", "Practice makes perfect.", "I'm a little rusty.", or "Sorry baby, I can't fuck like I used to." It applies to all aspects of human life from sports, games, drinking, drugs, art, and social interaction. If you don't keep up, you fall behind. The kind of "use it or lose it" attitude that I'm reffering to is basic political and social decsent. A few weeks ago I lost "it". Now I've got it back. I was so wrapped up in my school,job, mixing records and partying, buying the bar etc., that I lost sight of one of the most basic and important aspects of human existense: descent. Descent against social norms, and political ignorance. Descent against corrupt government, crooked cops, and descent against bliss. Yes, bliss. For a while I got so wrapped up in the normal everyday life that people go through, that I was happy. I was actually happy with the world. I said to myself, "Self, you have a beutifull life, a chance to even do more, a job, and a wonderfull girl that will soon be yours. What's not to be happy about?" That's what I lost. I lost the ability to determine what was bad about this world. I spent so much time focused on myself and what I had, that I didn't give a shit about what others might be going through. I didn't have time to read about the Iraqi children getting their arms and legs blown off. I didn't have time to read blogs of female soldiers getting raped because sexually suppressed, perverted soldiers had been away from their wives too long. I didn't have time to listen to interviews about poor parent's who's children got murdered in front of their eyes by crooked cops. I didn't have time to read about how our government is spying on us using sophisticated keyword software determining who's socially acceptable or not. For a moment, ignorance was bliss, and I was happy. Now that I've got "it" again, I'd like to say something: I don't want to be blissfull. I hate ignorance. I feel like shit bieng euphorically drugged by societies infinate distractions. I want to be mad. I want to feel like throwing a brick through the window of a federal building. You should want to throw a brick through the window of a federal building too. Of course you shouldn't, because it's an illogical way to fix the problems at hand, but you should want to. It feels completely natural for me to want to do that. It makes me feel human to be angry at our "descision makers" It makes me feel human to be angry with people who don't pay attention to the problems in this world. It makes me happy to be mad in that way. Now before judging my extreme thought crime remember this: I'm constantly told that "I'm an angry person" because I complain about my criminal government. They say "You've got it all. Why are you so pissy? Your spoiled and greedy! You want more!" Your godamned right I do! I want everyone to have what I have! Everyone should have what I have! Of course I get angry at my government when they sexually torture little boys. Why am I spoiled when I don't want that to happen? Wouldn't you be angry if some country out of nowhere bombed your house and blew your childs leg off? I rest my case. Let's not worry so much about "number 1." Let's the end assinine fuckery. Let's drop bliss, get pissed and show these coropt cops that kill at will at make there own laws and politicans that in slave us and posion us and destroy are country and everybody elses

ANGEL'S CAN MEAN LOT'S OF THINGS IN LIFE IT CAN BE A SIGN OF HAPPINESS, OR EVEN A SIGN OF LOVE OR IT CAN EVEN BE THAT SPECIAL SOME ONE IN UR LIFE AS FOR MY ANGEL SHE IS LIKE NO OTHER ANGEL LIKE I'VE EVER KNOWN BEING WITH HER THERE IS NOT WORD'S TO EXPLAIN THE HAPPNIESS FROM LOOKIN AT HER BEING IN HER PRESENCE NOT HAVING TO WORRY ABOUT TROUBLE OR PROBLEM'S IN THE WORLD WITH EYE'S SO BEAUTIFUL IT WOULD BE LIKE A GLIMPSE IN TO HEAVEN AND A SMILE SO BRIGHT AND BEAUTIFUL IT WILL TAKE UR BREATHE AWAY BEING IN HER PRESENCE IS LIKE BEING IN AN OTHER WORLD IN IT'S SELF AS I HOLD MY PRECIOUS ANGEL IN MY ARM'S WISHING FOR THIS MOMENT TO NEVER END AS I HOLD MY ANGEL I LOOK IN TO MY HER EYE'S THEN I GIVE HER GENTLE KISS ON HER FOREHEAD AND SAY NEVER LEAVE ME MI ANGEL story of the an unknown angel Category: Romance and Relationships just recently a new person came in to my life and she waslike nuthing like i've seen before with a smile so beautiful you can't help it but smile back the feeling i get from being around her is such a high i never knew you feel this way about some one i've only seen things like this in movies or in tv show's but now i know that feeling just thinking of her just makes me smile even when i'm down or mad i get a warm feeling just tingly feeling just from seeing her hearing her vocie or even her laugh brings a smile 2 my face she has sumthing about her that i can't really get my finger on i meet girls before with things u know right away about them that you like but not this one i wish i could tell her how crazy she's driving me just thinking of her night and day not knowing if she likes me back only hopeing she felt the same wanting to talk to her but always to nervous to say anything to her not knowing what she w ill say back to me or think i'm some weird guy trying to hit on her if she only really knew how i am once she got to know me she'll like me but till that day comes all i can do is think about her and wonder how it would be if we were ever to get togetherdream girl is a title to some and some believe in it and other's don't but as for me i do believe in it just recently if u have read my latest "story of an unknown angel" u would have a idea of what i'm talking about cause a dream is some one who u dream about night after night and u never get tired of thinking of them cause your so happy dreaming about that person wishing u could meet that some one in person and express what u feel for them but you do and the only problem with that is the you only express yourself and tell that person how u feel for them in your dreams wishin for the day u can go up to them or waiting for the day u meet that one special some one in person and i have meet the some one who has made a big impression on me making me feel ways that are so hard to explain thinking of this person always brings a smile to my face no matter what mood i'm in or what i'm doing it never fails to make me smile and wanting to tell this one person what i thinking of them and how i feel when i'm around them there's no words to express what feel or think when i hear her laugh just looking to to her beautiful eyes drives me in to a never ending trance

A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, He said...no. She asked him if he would want to be with her forever.... and he said no. She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry, and once again he replied with a no. She had heard enough. As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said.... You're not pretty you're beautiful. I don't want to be with you forever, I NEED to be with you forever. And I wouldn't cry if you walked away...I'd die...