I sway to the melodic beat of the madness.
It never leaves me.
It is who I have become.
I reach out to touch it, but it slips through my fingers.
They come to me at night.
I pray for the strength to make it 'til morning, for my release.
I am caught in this nightmare, this never ending pain.
I can hear them crying, wanting me to come to them.
I run all over searching.
I scream out their names.
They cannot be found, but I hear them crying.
I rock myself in the darkness of the night, praying they will find me.
They never do.
I do not know who is lost, them or me.
This is my hell on earth.
My children are crying, they need me, but their deaths have stopped me from finding them.
I hear them crying!
Please...I cannot find them!
I hear my children and I am helpless.