I sit alone in a room where the only light shining are the glowing images appearing out of the television. You may start to wonder "what is she watching?' but the answers are not clear. I see nothing.. I am immeresed in nothing but thought, surrounded by doorways every where I look. Each door looks more promising than the one before, yet I sense trouble no matter which one is opened. I pull back within myself, deep almost unreachable. I pull my knees close in to my chest and hug them as I burry my head and try to escape visions that flash before me. So many corridors to run through, all leading nowhere. There must be an end there must be some sort of destination, but alas I am beginning to feel doubt. I am standing now, I reach into myself and pull on the one thing that will get me through, courage, followed by my strength and determination, hoping that none will fail me. As I gather myself in to one, flashes of childhood memories run right past me, like the time I was little and played with friends in a building being constructed at night, then I had no fear, but was full of curiosity. I drop to my knees as the memories drift away because just as quick as I had lived the life a child should live, I was thrown in to another time. A smile errupts as I see him come, a comforting feeling to have someone to share my time with, to have someone to talk to, for there was seldom ever anyone to talk to. I took care of him and watched out for him and he grew up to be a very fine man, a man any mother would be proud to call him their son, he is my brother.. I cover my eyes from the light I see coming up ahead, random images bursting through like that of a fireworks show, parties, good times, sorrow, lost friendships, and the birth of a child. My Child.. I guess I must be taking that step through this door even if the path is unclear. If there is anything in my life that I have done right, it is giving birth to my gift, and this gift I cherish always, and the world is a better place because he is in it. Not a whole lot I can do about most things, but I can try to do what I think and feel is right. I'm tired now, I reach up to turn off the television, only to realize I haven't been watching a show, it has all been within my mind..but for now, I shall turn off the lights for I will return again soon...
