Midnight Phone Call
We all know what it's like to get that phone call in the middle of the
night. This night's call was no different. Jerking up to the ringing
summons, I focused on the red illuminated numbers of my clock. Midnight!
Panicky thoughts filled my sleep-dazed mind as I grabbed the receiver.
Hello?"
My heart pounded; I gripped the phone tighter and eyed my husband, who was
now turning to face my side of the bed. "Mama?" I could hardly hear the
whisper over the static. But my thoughts immediately went to my
daughter. When the desperate sound of a young crying voice became clearer
on the line, I grabbed for my husband and squeezed his wrist.
"Mama, I know it's late, but don't...don't say anything, until I finish.
And before you ask, yes, I've been drinking. I nearly ran off the road a
few miles back, and..." I drew in a sharp shallow breath, released my
husband and pressed my hand against my forehead. Sleep still fogged my
mind and I attempted to fight back the panic. Something wasn't right.
"And I got so scared. All I could think about was how it would hurt you if
a policeman came to your door and said I'd been killed. I want...to come
home. I know running away was wrong. I know you've been worried
sick. I should have called you days ago, but I was afraid...afraid..."
Sobs of deep-felt emotion flowed from the receiver and poured into my
heart. Immediately I pictured my daughter's face in my mind and my fogged
senses seemed to clear. "I think--"
"No! Please let me finish! Please!" She pleaded, not so much in anger but
in desperation.
I paused and tried to think of what to say. Before I could go on, she
continued, "I'm pregnant, Mama. I know I shouldn't be drinking
now...especially now, but I'm scared, Mama. So scared!" The voice broke
again and I bit into my lip, feeling my own eyes fill with moisture. I
looked at my husband who sat silently mouthing, "Who is it?"
I shook my head and when I didn't answer, he jumped up and left the room,
returning seconds later with the portable phone held to his ear. She must
have heard the click in the line because she continued, "Are you still
there? Please don't hang up on me! I need you. I feel so alone."
I clutched the phone and stared at my husband, seeking guidance. "I'm
here, I wouldn't hang up," I said.
"I know I should have told you, Mama. But when we talk, you just keep
telling me what I should do. You read all those pamphlets on how to talk
about sex and all, but all you do is talk. You don't listen to me. You
never let me tell you how I feel. It is as if my feelings aren't
important. Because you're my mother, you think you have all the answers.
But sometimes I don't need answers. I just want someone to listen"
I swallowed the lump in my throat and stared at the
how-to-talk-to-your-kids pamphlets scattered on my night stand. "I'm
listening," I whispered.
"You know, back there on the road, after I got the car under control, I
started thinking about the baby and taking care of it. Then I saw this
phone booth and it was as if I could hear you preaching about people
shouldn't drink and drive. So I called a taxi. I want to come home."
"That's good, Honey," I said as relief filled my chest. My husband came
closer, sat down beside me and laced his fingers through mine. I knew from
his touch that he thought I was doing and saying the right thing. "But you
know, I think I can drive now."
"No!" I snapped. My muscles stiffened, and I tightened the clasp on my
husband's hand. "Please, wait for the taxi. Don't hang up on me until the
taxi gets there." "I just want to come home, Mama."
"I know. But do this for your mama. Wait for the taxi, please." I
listened to the silence in fear. When I didn't hear her answer, I bit
into my lip and closed my eyes. Somehow I had to stop her from driving.
"There's the taxi, now."
Only when I heard someone in the background asking about a Yellow Cab did I
feel my tension easing.
"I'm coming home, Mama." There was a click and the phone went silent.
Moving from the bed with tears forming in my eyes, I walked out into the
hall and went to stand in my sixteen-year-old daughter's room. The dark
silence hung thick. My husband came from behind, wrapped his arms around
me and rested his chin on the top of my head. I wiped the tears from my
cheeks. "We have to learn to listen," I said.
He pulled me around to face him. "We'll learn. You'll see." Then he took
me into his arms and I buried my head in his shoulder. I let him hold me
for several moments, then I pulled back and stared back at the bed. He
studied me for a second, then asked, "Do you think she'll ever know she
dialed the wrong number?"
I looked at our sleeping daughter, then back at him. "Maybe it wasn't such
a wrong number."
"Mom, Dad, what are you doing?" The muffled young voice came from under
the covers. I walked over to my daughter, who now sat up staring into the
darkness. "We're practicing," I answered.
"Practicing what?" she mumbled and laid back on the mattress, her eyes
already closed in slumber.
"Listening," I whispered, and brushed a hand over her cheek.