These feeling I have I try to hide
but it is me they seem to find
from time to time
they beat me down
sometimes they just lead me to cry
most the time they make me want to die
why
why couldn't i see
the lies bestowed upon me
if only my head was clear
you would all still be near
sometimes i wonder if you even remember
this estranged family member
i hope and i pray that there will come a day
that i can once again hear you say
say that word that makes my heart melt
until you i have never really felt
anything greater than this feeling
there is no other greater
than being a father