I dunno what I just promised myself.
Something vague.
Something amazing.
Something beautiful.
The perfect surprise, wrapped with a silk bow.
Something won two
someone too.
Maybe I'm getting my hopes up.
Maybe I'm getting ahead of myself.
Maybe I'm all messed up, saying silly things
making stupid claims
falling
in yet another tumble.
Headlong, headstrong, cocksure.
Only I'm not.
I'm as timid as a cornered mouse.
With no sabre like wit
or reportoire of pithy sidesteps.
I'm just me.
No style, no flash
pure substance and abuse
self imposed.
Like a fish out of water.
Like a raven out of murder.
But here I am, in an upright, downlow smashmouth display.
Me.
I.
Am
simply
amazed.
I took a gamble, I took a shot
flushed the impossible heart.
Because I always knew.
I looked under the surface
those thin wisps
those faint promises
of cream colored silk
against my outstretched,
thirsty fingers
against my starving eyes.
against my naysaying self confidence.
That explosion of mind and divine bright.
All spilling out of the amazing well of she.
Something bright, something amazing, something irresistable, behind those crystal shells.
A promise
a hint of that
which I can't be without.
Like a week without starlight.
Like the moon without a smile.
Like the threat
of a life
without.
