I thought I would be ok this weekend, but I can't stop thinking of my mother. The messed up thing is it's not like I've had her for the last 14 mother's days since she was sick. But I feel it this weekend. Because I know she is. I started crying yesterday when one of my customer showed me a card she had bought for her daughter. It was a stupid Disney card too. I will probably be getting drunk tonight because I feel the need to be numb.