I have caused you
bitter pain.
I've lost my smile
in freezing rain.
I know you loved
me you really did.
But I couldn't show
you the pain I hid.
I seemed so normal
for a while.
But normalcy has
never been my style.
I bottled emotions,
that should have shown.
And in that time,
my angst has grown.
I should have known
you'd help me heal.
But I just can't show
the way I feel.
I buried your light
in my defining dark
I couldn't let you in,
your reduced to a spark.
I may seem happy
and a bit outgoing.
but underneath,
there is so much unknowing.
In this poem
You find my apology.
For all your grief
I am so sorry.
