TODAY, I WENT TO PICK UP MY DAUGHTER FROM MARCHING BAND PRACTICE.
I WENT TO HUG HER AND SHE TURN AND WALKED AWAY.
MY HEART................................................................................................... I CANT EXPLAIN.
I FEEL LIKE ON THAT ONE EPISODE OF THE SIMPSONS WHEN BART FELL FOR THAT OLDER CHICK PLAYED BY THE CHICK FROM THE ROSEANNE SHOW... OK, I WENT ON A TANGENT.....
ANYWAY THAT EPISODE
BART TOLD HER HE LIKED HER, SHE SAID SHE DIDNT LIKE HIM.
IN HIS MIND AND ON THE SHOW..SHE RIPPED HIS HEART OUT AND TOSSED IT IN THE TRASH.....
OK
THAT IS HOW I FEEL.
WORSE
I HAVE HAD RELATIONSHIPS THAT WENT SOUR.
I HAVE HAD SOME CHEAT ON ME.
BUT SOMEWAY;;
SOMEHOW I STOOD BACK UP AND KEPT MY HEAD UP.
BUT THIS RIGHT HERE........MY HEART IS SO HEAVY...MY EYES ARE SO BAGGY....
I AM AT A LOST FOR WORDS......
I AM WEAK.VUNERABLE.EXPOSED
I AM NOTHING......
MY DAUGHTER
MY FIRST BORN
MY ONLY DAUGHTER
MY BABY GIRL
I AM HURT
I LIVE FOR MY KIDS
I BREATHE FOR MY KIDS
I NEVER MISSED A SHOW, A PRACTICE, ANYTHING THEY HAD FOR 14 YEARS STRAIGHT...
ALWAYS BEEN THERE
JEOPARDIZING MY JOB, MY FAMILY.
ANYTHING FOR THEM... AND THIS IS THE THANKS I GET?