I dont know what is wrong with me lately. I used to be such a confident and independant woman but lately I have been so un sure of myself clinging to my friends, both on and off line. I have been feeling like I have nothing but my daughter. I dont have many friends, dont get me wrong the friends I have are amazing and I would not trade them for the world, I just have very few that I would call friends. and to be honest I have no real social life other then D and M and A. and yes those are the first letters of my two friends.
I know I am just feeling sorry for myself but I think that it stems down to me missing being in a relationship. I miss being held. I miss the constant companion in my life. the connection having someone in my life brings. I know it is stupid to feel like you need someone but everyone needs someone right? I can seem to meet anyone local. the only men I have "met" that I like are online and live in states far away. and even then you can not trust that they are for real. they could be ninety year old me or be ax murderers. I wish I could just find a nice simple man who likes quiet nights in and a few wild ones out. someone who lives to cuddle and be near the one he loves. one that will take my daughter into his heart, lord knows she is not in her fathers, and a man who will provide the best he can. I just want a family not just for me but for my daughter. a family that is better then the one we have now.
dont mind my rambling I guess I am just feeling down and lonely. I will cope I guess LOL.
HUGS
kitten