I just had a mental breakthrough as to what my problem is.
There's different parts of the brain right and sometimes they don't get along.. the part that's retaliating is my wondering part of my brain..the part that says hey I wanna fly airplanes the part that says hey lets travel the world the part that says hey I want to go back to college and get a degree, I want an adventure! The rest of my brain is yelling back.. can't afford it, you're not organized enough, don't wanna go against hubby's fears of me flying or growing.
If I work at it maybe I can prove to myself I'm organized enough, smart enough, strong enough, so I can work to where I can afford an adventure. I haven't had one in so long I didn't even get one in the army when that was a big reason why I even joined; to fly and to see the world.
I don't want a mundane life. I don't want unsafe adventures either. My mind still has flying as safe to do, I dream of it.
