Vampire Romance's blog: "my poems"

i feel like talking shit you wanna know why hold your breath and listen you thought you meant me good but you never bothered asking...i feel like talking shit you wanna know why because that was the only thing i could talk to you about you never cared about me you never listened to me you ignored me but you made me much stronger....and all of those things i dont regret for now i will be more cautious you can rot in hell and beg for forgiveness but you never forgave me for all the things i didnt do for you the only thing i gave was my heart my life and my tears but now i have found hope if only would exist now i have none and i dont care i feel like talking shit you wanna know why because thats what i feel right now...shit i feel like hitting you to make you listen to me but its not worth it when you wake up tomorrow or what ever day it is that you wake up you will see that i am not there you will ask why but i told you over and over but you did not listen so now i am gone i gave all of me to you,you only used me and threw me away you threw what we had away

he always lied to me... he even tried to kill me(emotionally) and now he's begging for me back again well i wont listen im not that worthless i do have my pride i would rather rot in hell then be his sacrifice he will never get the best of me any more ill just go so i'll be happy trying to make me feel guilty for leaving him.. it wont work this time because i dont care any more i will never let myself go back i rather rot in hell

I believe the eyes are a gateway to the soul when they let you inside you will see the true beauty that lies beneath the persons skin the only way to see true beauty is first to see the beauty within yourself.....once you see the beauty in you the world will never look the same thorough your eyes

THIS IS ONE THAT IS VERY OLD I WAS WRITING IN A OLD JOURNAL AND FOUND THIS ONE IT WAS TO A FOR A GUY THAT WAS KILLED IN A CAR ACCIDENT HE WAS 17 AND ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS IN HIGH SCHOOL HIS NAME WAS MATT HALME HE WAS KILLED IN A CAR ACCIDENT IN 1993 R.I.P MATT!


IM SO SAD AND DEPRESSED ITS ALL I CAN DO IS REST I GO TO SLEEP AT NIGHT BUT MY DREAMS I JUST CAN NOT FIGHT I THINK OF YOU LYING IN THAT BED AND WONDER IF THERE WAS ANYTHING I COULD HAVE SAID I WISH YOU WERE STILL HERE BUT I KNOW THAT YOU ARE STILL NEAR I LOVED YOU MORE THEN YOU KNEW I WISH YOU DIDNT HAVE TO GO I JUST WANT ONE MORE DAY AND I KONW THAT WHAT YOU WOULD HAVE WANTED TOO I MISS YOU MORE EACH DAY THERE IS SO MUCH MORE THAT WE COULD HAVE SAID BUT MY LIFE IS JUST STARTED TO BEGIN YOU HAD TO GO AND ILL SEE YOU ONE DAY WHEN IM OLD

i think each night about the moment we first met you took my breath away and i couldnt take my eyes off you a watched you watched you move in that weird way you do i watched you look at me too those brown eyes peering deep into my soul it was like it was real it felt so natural they way we connected the way it all seemed like it was meant to be and i felt like it was meant to be when we are together it wass like we have been together for years the passion the love but not anymore it has faded never been dimmer i look at you and i feel nothing anymore i have never felt so cold and though others try to steer me away I will fight to the end for this unhappiness in wrong and in right

only you can build me up what the world has torn me down i can always find your warm presence when it seems no one else is around i constantly find myself dreaming of your touch the way your hands runs gently down my cheek and just the thought of your soft kiss makes me quiver and i suddenly get weak i can still feel your body when wrapped in my arms and i can still sense the smell of your hair but each passing moment that i live without you the more the strings of my heart begin to tear but as we meet again and i gaze into your eyes all my pain and sorrow is put at ease then our bodies embrace withpassion uniting with a warm and gentle squeeze i now know that finding you was my purpose in life there is only one man that fulfills me both in body and mind one man that showers me with these feelings so true there is only one man ill love both now and forever there is only one man for me only you that i have yet to find

to whomever this may concern watching the things crash and burn twisted smiles on all your lips in the dark where no one sees taking morbid revelry listen close to what i say tainted smile upon your face tainted heart and tainted grace all these has long in me been played dont try to re-enact my fate

shes lost in a happy nightmare where all dreams come true hes everything she ever wanted and everything that ever haunted her shes confused and restless ecstatic and anxious thinking yes and saying no all she can see is dirty sunshine and shes not sorry but she cant stop apologizing though she made a promise but she lied to herself she sits waiting worried about what will really happen because she look when she wasnt supposed to her feelings bleed out of the songs thats why she doesnt sing anymore the sleepless nights are her best friend her mind races so fast but will never win shes too lazy but shes off the wall shes unchained but caged in shes waited so long for this moment and cant wait for it to be over Her feelings run so deep they soon become shallow shes lost inside but knows her way she will be found but tries to hide she will give in without a fight

i was used to having this feeling that i dont have anymore there used to be gentle hugs with passionate kisses and sad misses i just loved that feeling like you know someones there now i am stuck in the cold With nothing at all to wear i used to be cuddled and even kept warm also was kept calm during a storm but i began to be smothered with feeling of nothing i regret this decision to get help Please God why Now i am alone he has found the company of another

long Ago i knew you and every memory i shared with you and how painful sometimes it is to remember every Word every Day every Time i was with you and how close i felt to something special something deep inside you were a part of me you had a part of my Soul my Heart my love and how every day i shined~cause of you and everyday i couldnt wait to see you and how i regret those days i kept my silence and how i wish i would have said something said anything to make you understand and then we left our love fell apart and how i wish i could change that and how sometimes late at night i cant fall asleep cause i wish you were here and how i wrap myself so closely with that pillow you used just to remember just that something to feel a part of you again and how sometimes i lay drowning myself in tears waiting longing yearning to feel your touch just to be with you just to hold you just to kiss you.....once and how there are some mornings i wake up reaching out for you but you are not there and sometimes i imagine that you still care and how once in a while i fantasize we will have that love back again and how i wish i could take this year back to last to relive forever out in past