my weekend has actually sucked more than usual. i didnt get to see the people i wanted to see cuz i didnt wanna talk to anyone. i stayed offline until now.
friday:
my dad got my pissed off, so i took my meds and left to catch the late bus to school. i skipped breakfast and the bus stop is a 15-20 min walk from my house. i walked into a store to get some food and th line was too long so i left. i walked back to the bus stop and got my lunch out quick cuz i felt like i was gonna throw up from hunger. as i was about to open a banana, i did throw up. called my mom:
me: mom? i just threw up
mom: well no wonder! you took ur meds without breakfast didnt you?
me: yep, in that case, i'm fine.
went to skool, survived not having homework for most subjects.
saturday:
dyed my hair and made two cakes. go me. stayed home and watched movies all day. i was on a star wars craving. gave up going to a dinner wit my family cuz i knew it was gonna be hell. guess mom worries about me, and i've decided i'll become a homebody...dont have much else to do.
sunday:
lazy morning, tons of homework and now heartbreak. yea i'm not gettin anything done today...crying over someone i shouldnt be. gee thanks matt, ur a real help.
i wish i could feel nothing instead of wantin to rip out my heart...and i know i cant do anything to change his feelings. right now, all i can do is be angry and cry and just wish that everything was back as it was.
i feel it's my fault again too...
