So I never sleep hardly anymore, I always find myself staying up as late as I can, I mean I get off work at 10pm anyway so it don't matter I can sleep till like 2pm anyway, but I never want to sleep, I never try to sleep.......I know I need it but I just am scared to.......But that I can't help, I try not to, I only sleep good when someone else is there, and than again I still don't sleep good, only ONE time did I sleep and not worry or have nightmares, and I wish I could cuddle and fall asleep with that woman EVERY night...But I can't right now......