And she falls asleep with tears in her eyes, no one there but the skies. Her heart cant take no more. She gives and gives and only dust is returned. She holds others so high above herself, Making sure they are shown everything. And in return she gets nothing. Coldness, darkness, Heartache. She falls asleep with tears in her eyes...Blood shot eyes she wakes to. Puts a smile on her face for when shes screaming for help, no one hears anyway. She just once wants to know with everything in her, that this is not something wrong. But everything points to something off. She tries to stay and see if it gets better, only to find herself falling with no one there to catch her. They refuse to catch for they dont care, they just look upon and stare. Left always feeling like the option, with no hope to be the priority. And again, she falls asleep with tears in her eyes....No one there but the skies.
Im a world full of something! I can give so much, Teach so much.Ive experienced more in my lifetime than one coud ever imagine! Ive had good days, bad days...hard days and easy days.Ive had days where I should have never woke..and days where I should have never slept.
Im a world full of something!! I can lead you into my world, and I promise it will never be easy. But my world, really isnt all that bad and has a very wonderful light in it.
But you have to be one strong soul to travel it. To even make it. This world is not for the distant or the ones who are shallow minded.
Im a world full of something!!
Never to be treated as nothing...
dont even enter things with me thinking they will be anything youve ever experienced. Cause I can promise you...and it is my word...They will not be. Im me...100% me....Im not her him or anyone else. I am me...Im perfectly happy with my flaws and Im perfectly happy with me. those who are close to me...Know my world and know its difficult, but they have seen the light and they know just what its like to have me by their side in this world.
Im a world full of something,
Never to be treated as nothing!
Get out from under my skin...
I feel you crawling...
Trying to make me sin...
I close my eyes...
All I see is the Devils grin...
Get out of my head....
You fill me with nothing but dread..
I despise you when youre in me...
I hate the way you cant see...
What it is you do to thee...
All I wanna do is scream...
Till it all seems gone...
I want it out of me..
I want to hear a new song...
But the demons tune you played for me...
Lingers in my mind day and night...
Filling me with so much fright...
Yet here I stand....
waiting for the fight...
Im complex and tempermental.
I have hidden secrets that even the bestest of friends dont know.
Theres things hidden deep in my walls that many try to see, yet are unable to grasp.
If I let you in its your job to cherish that gift I just gave to you, not take it for granted or even look passed it.
If youre unable to understand it then you try to...if you never try you will never find what it is I hold.
So much thats left unseen about me, its the ones who take the time out, that get to see the me thats hidden.
I dont open up much and I leave so much a mystery.
So many are captivated, but by what?
A look?
The mystery?
The challenge?
They have no idea what it is that draws them near, but yet they fear....
And when they allow that fear to take hold....Its when they let go...
It was perfection, being in your arms.
The giggles, the smiles, The eyes spoke so strong.
Then in a blink it was over.
Where did it all go wrong?
Months of trying, to just fail...
It makes no sense at all..
The memories, they haunt me....annoy me....remind me...
I want to clear it out of my mind, yet its like they hide.
Then with a blink of the eye....they return to inform me of what once was..
Years of being sheltered, closed off...now Im left wondering...
All I wish is for it to vanish, like you did, in the night...just to wake with no memory of it all...
Trying to place the peices...yet im left missing so many...its a jigsaw puzzle unfinished..
Walking around dazed..Its a haze overcoming me...
My senses are overcome...I can hear you in the background...
I can smell you in the night, as if you were right by myside.
Looking over at the other side of the bed...Touching the pillow then my head...
Missing what was....Thats no longer.
Wishing I was so much stronger...
Just want to forget this chapter....
Im the one you see in your dreams at night.
Im the one who makes you feel the fright.
When you close your eyes, its mine that you see...
Its me...the devil...the devil inside thee.
I burn into your soul....
Grabbing ahold...
Time for a flight....
You cant see it in sight...
Its me...the devil...The devil inside thee...
The twist and the turns.
The flames that burn.
Emotional disturbance.
A heart filled with turbulance.
Its me...the devil...The devil inside thee...
Blood stained sheets,
Passion filled tears,
Emotionally disturbed mind,
Eyes of the darkness,
Ice in the veins,
Hate filled heart,