A friend had a talk with me the other night and what he said made a lot of sense to me!! For years I have sat by and was someone I'm not why because I was trying to get by with out pain form those I loved!! So for the longest damn time I was editing my life. Now with a lot of help from friends, I'm makeing big steps to not give a fuck about all the BS thats out there!! People look at me and they think they know me,but what they don't know is no one really knows me i see to it,all my life I've been everything that everyone eles wanted me to be. Shame on them for not wanting to know me and shame on me for leting them not know how fucking pissed off that they didn't want to know me!! I'm dark,sad, pissed off,very sexual,lusty for many things,understanding,broken.Thats me in a nut shell ,You don have to fucking like it,but you have to deal with it. Been this way for all my life not going to change for anyone. If you can't deal with it thats your fucking lost not mine,I'm one of the rare people who will not fuck you over unless you fuck me over!! I could say more but I won't for now!!
