Well, I had a doctor's appt. today, What I found out is something I had a clue about but not what I really wanted to hear.
Here I am diabetic, of course it runs in my family. My Dad had it. He also, had to get insulin shots. Now so do I. My blood sugar level is very high.
Those of you who know me, know that i'm the junk food junkie!! This is going to be tough.
Funny thing is I'm liking the taste of diet pop which I used to hate.
Now everything makes sense in why I feel the way I do. Its just getting it under control. The worse part for me is the shots in the stomach. Its not as bad as it seems but I still don't like it.
What goes thru my mind when I found out, was great, first off I'm alone, I can't have kids, most of my close friends are gone or have their own lives to live, I'm too young to get this, (not really) but I'm going to grow old alone. I just don't like being alone, through this right now. My mother is driving me crazy (that's my mom, i love her)
I'm so new to this, & feel like a bumbling idiot. I have to test my sugar, if its too high then I have to give myself insulin & eat which I have to redo my whole menu and food. I have to get it down to 100 so I don't have to take the shot, well so far the lowest I got it was 279, still not good.
Now its back up to the 300's not good. Then I get scared, because am I doing this the correct way?
Then I got other stuff going on that i refuse to talk about & other medications I have to take. I really don't feel good, but at least I could finally sleep unlike before. I know the signs of high blood but not about low, so I'm giving myself a phobia and not wanting to go anywhere. but I can't be that way.
Things will happen, just like shit.
I guess I will get by, on my own again. I don't want pity, so don't bother or I'll get nasty with you, and some of you already found out the hard way. So if you think I'm mean then too freaking bad, because I am.
I'm just scared and new at this so I do apologize if I don't respond in the most pleasant way.
That's all for now.
