OK yesterday someone that has been a big part of my life and well always will be tells me something unexpected. That he can never love,or give his heart away. The one woman that he feels would steal his heart for good scares him. The one that has been there and gone but still there. At this point I was wondering what he was talking about and who. I just kept listening of course as I tend to do. Finally he asked me who I thought he was talking about. Well of course I couldn't answer cause I wasn't sure...Well he lets me know its me. That one person thats been in his life for at least 15 years now. That no matter for what reason,or whatever time it is fine to call. At this point I am just stunned and having no idea what to say.I have no idea what to say or how to feel about that. I have been hurt enough and it hasn't quite ended just yet. I'm already in the middle of getting away from another bad relationship. My heart will be locked away for a very long time because it can't take anymore. I want to be loved but without the pain..I know that is almost impossible at any point. But it will take alot to touch my heart. I still really have no idea what to say about the situation or even how to feel about it. I mean I already know we have chemistry because we cannot be near each other too long..Things will happen no matter how we feel. I just don't want that. I want to be loved unconditionally and feel it....
