Men
I have come to the conclusion that men only want something when they can not have it. I have a close friend that I once dated awhile back. We got very close and I did fall in love with him. It was not what he wanted though he liked dating other women and having me around as well. I have moved passed that in my life and I am able to be close friends with him we talk about everything including his new girlfriend of two years that he is in love with. She gives him the same problems with the relationship that he gave me. (What comes around goes around right) Well when he is drunk he decides to call me up complain and kinda cry on my shoulder about it. I tell him the best way I can think of how to deal with it. Most of the time he will call her and talk mean any ways and of course cause himself more problems. Well to get to the point of this blog. He sometimes decides to tell me I don't need to be with anyone because he wants me back and needs me because he can depend on me. He gets so jealous of the fact that I am happy with my choice in the man I now have in my life and want to keep in my life as long as possible. He just makes me so angry with him when he does this that I sometimes feel like I would be better off not talking with him anymore. Then I reminder that sometimes I need to talk to him because he can tell me things I am doing wrong without yelling at me like most people do. He is always there to tell me to stiffen my lip when I want to cry or tell me that someone is not worth my time or tears. I also realize that he needs me to and sometimes when he is drunk there is no filter there to stop him from just saying whatever no matter how much it hurts me or makes me upset. Jealousy is ugly and has no place in a friendship between two people that decided to just be friends and not let love mess it up or get in the middle and now that I have moved on he is jealous because I am happy for the first time since him. I am truly happy with my man and don't see a problem with my choice in him. I love him and don't want anyone else right now or ever as far as I can see at this time. I hope that he feels the same but as one of my best friends has stated I am going to ride the bull till it kicks me off if it does. There is a lot about my future that is up in the air at this point but one thing is for sure IT IS MY FUTURE TO CHOSE not anyone else's MINE AND MINE ALONE!!!!!!!!!! So if you have advise that is fine give it that is the glory of a free country and the other part of that is that it is my choice not to take it and make my own mistakes. It is great to learn from others choices but sometimes you have to find out for yourself and do things for yourself. I hope this makes since if not you shouldn't be reading it because you do not know me or your would understand to a point. I LOVE YOU BABY!!!! I hope you are sleeping well because I will now.
