Being on the threshold of my 48th birthday this Sunday, and since I repeated get asked "so tell me about you", I figured I would collect whatever brain cells i still have and try to paint a picture of who "Chrissy" is.
Those of you that know me (and there are a few that know me very well) can give their own opinions but these are my own reflections of myself and life at present and in recent past.
Since 2005 I have moved 7 times, had 4 jobs, 2 surgeries, 2 cars, 1 son (19), 1 cat and 0 boyfriends lol. I have existed on CT unemployment for the past 2 years ($225/wk) and except for the help from my dear friend (she knows who she is) have essentially managed on my own. I spent the last 14 mos in school for medical billing and coding graduating with a 3.84 gpa, dean's list and president's list. Yay for the old broad!
I have struggled and problem solved and managed to survive this insanity of economic turmoil only because my mother taught me how to do without. I dont go out...go to bars...clubs..movies...dinner because I cant. (This to the dudes who continually want me to drive to see them...GET A LIFE IM POH!) You see me here alot because this is my entertainment. My friends are here, my family and the endless stream of nutcakes who make me laugh and keep me from going insane out of boredom.
I am not a small woman. Never ever have pretended to be otherwise. More rolls than pillsbury, gray hair, wrinkles and on most days cankles. I also have a brain, a huge heart, a raucous sense of humor...and a "clue".
I am asked why I am alone? I am because after a bad relationship...I decided to take a break and re-evaluate me. That was 5 years ago. Me is ok...its the rest of you I sometimes wonder about.
WHAT I AM NOT...
an alcoholic
a drug addict
a whore
a doormat
a w/e booty call
lazy
slovenly
crazy (lol...not medicated)
a stalker
a diva
weak
submissive
insecure
WHAT I AM...
a smartass
a comedic genius (or so I'm told)
assertive
commanding (of respect at the very least)
no one's #2,3 or 4 in line for anyone's affections
tired of being good enough to fuck but not to take out anywhere!!!!
a giver
emotional
intelligent
super sleuth
internet diva ("The Texas Tornado" although me...is truly a personna)
NSFW
Photographer
Photo editor
Model
I am sure I could think of several more under each category but the best way to find out anything is to go to the source. Ask and I will more often than not answer it. I'm an open book and can proudly state "The most honest person I know".
I want to thank the people that in the past two years (and they know who they are) who have helped me keep my sanity, who have literally listened to me cry, chase the demons from my head, picked me up when I've fallen, and shoved me back from the brink when I've wanted to jump. Three things keep me going ever forward...
My son....laughter...and hope.
Love ya's and Happy Mother's Day to the mom's and single dads!
Chrissy