One Month- Revisited
This is the poem that looked back at a poem 10 years later..
One Month
One month, almost 5 weeks,
one love affair has made all others look bleek.
Its shameful, my thoughts? full of disdain.
I find reason to complain because ya'll know her name.
Oh, its undisclosed, but ya'll know her though.
She is the first in this tale of woe.
I think i lost myself within her eyes,
then she gave me a new guise, and that proved to be unwise.
and that's my story, a collection of why's.
And unable to love effectivly because of emotional ties.
Who out there knows compassion? This i'm askin'
I cant reach the end zone, i keep face maskin'
And One month did this? Oh most dont agree.
But this is what she had done to me.
the people who remember me and the way I was,
and the first to notice was my first cuz.
He pulled me aside and asked what was wrong,
I said 30 days and nights were just too long.
He understood and did all he could.
And me trying to shuck her, just created ruckus...
No one cared that i died that night
her arms were miles away, but i thought i might
find relief. but i found more grief.
The chick was doing me and my homie Keith:
Roger, Darnel and the next door neighbor.
All this and then you hear that some one raped her.
She was my definition of a hoe..
But my homie Keith didnt think so.
30 days, 30 days, all full of mirth.
I learned if she was in a skirt, she was destined to hurt.
It was drama, comma, twisted tv.
Who is to blame? I blame society.
Because they support this kind of carnality.
It is pain and shame i feel when i look back in revelry.
But i travelled on further just a bit.
And if it wasnt me, id tell em to quit.
And so i remain confused and abused.
30 days of night, i would gamble to lose.
More stress and strife, my friend lost her life.
One asked can we elope, but then she said nope.
That's what i did for love, or what i did for you.
I asked was it true, and you know she never knew.
In 5 weeks i was reduced to
shambles, a mockery of what i was used to.
I used to sing her name to the heavens,
and now the only one she loves is Kevin.
Left unfinished- circa 1997 sk-
