Leviathan Cain's blog: "out of hell"

The whirling blades of shame and doubt gouge Valleys through my soul.
Help me please I scream and shout, can anybody make me whole?
Such emptiness inside my heart, my darkness runs too deep
Will the happy ever start? And will I ever sleep?
These voices whisper through my head are they Happy are they Sad?
I have to Run away and hide,my actions always make them Mad
They yell and scream and hit me hard, I pray but nothing seems to change
Every moment leaves me scarred like a dog that’s full of mange

Strangle hold- I can’t break free -please someone come and rescue me
Make me whole- and set me free- I need someone to rescue me

The depths of darkness I’ve traversed in the bowls of hatred there is no light
The good and bad somehow reversed no foothold left to stage a fight
Alcoholically and morally debased, my heart and soul pitch black
Narcotics used tried to erase but it all keeps coming back
Are these voices in my head? My hostages haunting me
Or just phantasms of my dead my wounds forever bleed
Every one runs screaming for the hills a needle stick and I don’t care
They wear off too soon the booze and pills and lay my senses bare

I can’t go on -I’ve lost my will -someone come and rescue me
My heart is gone, emotions kill, someone help I plead

I can’t take this anymore God are you listening? Can you hear?
My heart is frozen to its core please take the dark and fear
I’ll drop the drugs, go through the sick. I won’t rely on self
I’ll set some goals and make them stick and ill fix my health
With the sickness gone I’ll do something strange
I’ll go where souls like mine get well
Now life has hope it’s not insane
Locked in a self-made cell
All of my secrets now laid bare, to haunt me nevermore
My goal find some one else to help, and help them in the door
Now I know I’m so aware, I pray and scream and shout
Through all my trials God was their of that I have no doubt

I was blind and I was wrong oh, but now and I see.
He is kind his love is strong God has come to set me free.