Fear of NOT being watched over indicates a distrust of oneself in general
And ones motivations in particular
A subconscious loathing of desire
Of self really
A perpetual childhood
Waiting for PERMISSION
From whomever you place above you
Disastrous mistake of course
Yet so many make it
Remember as a child what you made for other people
In hopes of approval
And what you made for yourself
Because you just had to
Which did you cherish & keep?
THAT will tell you who you are
And why you are here
More than anything else really
No god, lover, parent or offspring can tell you that
That is something that you have told yourself
Very loudly & clearly
Pay fucking attention to that shit