Me and my ex have been over for months and yet i still find myself wanting to be with her and see the kids.It's not really her though its i miss my kids.When you raise a kid for more than a year,even if it isn't yours they kinda grow on ya.When they refer to you as their other daddy.You have to fulfill the part.
With her i still feel the hate of what she did but when shes mad or upset i find myself being kind to her again.She tries to hide it from me but i know her more than she knows herself.I know that what she did to me was wrong.I don't know if I would ever forgive and forget.Yet when I see her fustraition with things and shes having a hard time.I cant help but to offer myself to help out.
In away I wish we could rekindle things and I could just tell her play times over come home.Then on the other hand i still want to look her in the eye and tell her to go fuck herself.
I know what most people would say but try to factor in i miss the kids.
I know im a smuck......but i just don't know what to do.
