When inside the darkness surrounds you? This great depression covers your heart. Your tears fall as you sit and stare out. Defeat has taken control of your emotions. There is nothing you can do to stop the pain. Knowing that tomorrow will be the same. Peace seems so far away from you. How does one live with the sadness. A life once so beautiful now weary and torn. As you sit and think your thoughts turn. To a place, only you can enter. A safe mode in your mind. Thoughts of suicide start drifting forward. You wonder if that is the path to take. Is that the only way to stop the pain? You reach for the gun knowing it is loaded. It feels cold and uncaring in your hand. You stare at it thinking it wont hurt. Just pull the trigger and it is all over. Doubts cloud your mind as you ponder. What if it fails to go off, what then? No it wont you bought it just for this moment. Raising the gun you smile freedom is a breath away. As you place it against your head, you whisper God forgive me. Your hand trembles as you feel your finger move. Then there is nothingness as the blackness comes. As silence fills the night, you fall.
