Mi's blog: "Poems/ Lyrics"

White Hopes by: Me Existing in a whirlwind everyone frolics away there is no one to stop you they never look back thinking it is easier to run but they are pushing me away separating me from your world leaving me all alone forcing me to to be forever trapped I can not escape Then I see your smile so bright and pure you have stayed just for me I love how you look at me while making me all these promises promises of serendity with you Telling me sweet guarantees of a pure love forever holding my hand to never let go Making my heart to skip beats whispering to me that my heart will heal I trust you to tell the truth no one else ever seems to I can not take anymore lies I am afraid to goto sleep for the fear of losing you Don't want the day to pass Don't want the night to come to be forever trapped with you by my side I ask myself a simple question Is this what they call love? I need no answers for I know it is..

Tomorrow (July 10, 2005) by: Me I stand in awe, as I stare into the sun hoping it might burn all my fears This will never come to be... A storm begins to conjure as I am terrified as hell hoping it might wash all my fears This will never come to be... Back where I started I have been here a few times My only real hope... Is hoping that tomorrow will be a little better... I often cry myself to sleep my silent tear no one ever hears I wish I had nothing to fear as I continue to weep... There is no need to tell you do not really care you may pretend to, but it is all just a fairy tale but my tears are so real, it is not fair ... This I can not take. Please, just make, make it stop. All of my smiles are fake. Please, my heart can not take, make it stop. Back where I started I have been here a few times My only real hope... Is hoping that tomorrow will be a little better... I wish I had nothing to fear... this will never come to be. For if I did not have my fear I would not be.. For fear is what gives us our true inner strength. Tomorrow will be a little better..... .....this will come to be.

"Not Okay" (July 05') by: me I am not fucking okay all I hear is you screaming at me making my stomach to curl I am terrified please do not hurt me anymore you can clearly see the fear in my eyes on most days you just walk away pretending you do not see me on other days you say that your sorry suffocating me with your lies just let me breathe your words will never heal making me to run away to live in my own world where you can never hurt me again but I am still terrified of you and now of everyone else crying out for attention yet none is there no ones gives a shit as long as I smile and say that I am okay but I am not okay I am not fucking okay I am not. *** I wrote this during a very bad part of my life, that I wish I could erase...but it has made me a stronger woman***

"A Beautiful Passion" by: Me You stare into my eyes making me feel so special like I am the only one that you can see Then you begin to touch me ever so softly sending chills down my spine making my flesh to become hot Reaching towards my ear feeling your hot breath as you whisper sweet nothings saying that you love me Slowly inching your way over to my moist lips wanting to kiss them with your soft and smooth ones You gently take my hands showing me that you truly care and pull me ever so close to your warm and loving soul Pressing your body closer towards mine making my heart to rush gasping for air Every movement you make tenses my body relaxing my mind driving me wild All I can do is think about you Sometimes it seems so surreal but in fact it is my reality I love that you are with me glad that you are mine and I want to be with you forever This is how I can tell that right now you are my love For if these things did not happen it would not be true.