The screaming and yelling
, name calling and pain,
where love once was , no longer your name,
you once filled my heart but not anymore
, no going back , done that before.
No smiles on my face that you put there each day
just tears of anger and sorrow
, this way No kisses or hugs , just snide remarks i
f only you could see the scars on my heart.
What once you treasured, you threw it away
Not yours anymore , Im afraid to say
For my love , which you lost was found elsewhere
. And I love him too, this i can swear
the one who I love , brings back that smile
No anger or hatred just loving and kind
Who treats your treasure much better than you
and oh my dear if only you knew,
Our days are numbered , my sorrow no more
dont say good bye when i walk out the door,
I will take with me the ones that i love
To the man I know, shows me much love
For lost have you which you thought was yours,
no more tears or slamming door,no more trying , pain or fears
. Just alone with your peers,
Lets see how right your friends were now
What once was has gone for good ,
a new path I choose and I know i should
my heart in my hand i offer to you,
love it protect it the way i do you
treasure it always its all that i have
but i give it you and dont want it back
the more it is cared for the bigger it grows
dont ever stop loving who knows
what it shows I love you with
everything all that I am you
are my darling my love my man
does you heart miss a beat when you say my name out loud? butterflies in stomach when you return home each night
excitement in you loins at the thought of my touch
knee bucking effects when i casually trace your back
do you dream of me each night as in bed with you i lay
am i ur first thought in morning when you wake up and start your day.
do you wonder if ill be there old and at your side
do you wonder if with each mouthful do you enjoy the meal i make or the time i spend trying to make the house just right.
do u sit there staring at a phone waiting for it to ring
and does your heart pound like thunder at the though of loving me Am i here in your life cos you love me or cos fate threw you this curve..
you say u see wonder when in fact you see fear..
fear that you will reject me cos im not the woman you thought i was fear that im not good enough or maybe just that you have had enough.
you are not what i thought you were, in fact i cant complain you are far better than i hoped for and i hope you feel the same..
. by julie
i loved you unconditionally you were my life father to our children me your loving wife
and then one day out of the blue the news came that i could lose you
fear and panic,loss of hope world falling down
,tried not to choke Cancer was the dreaded word the man i loved just sat and stared
as the doctor told us then the end was close
not much hope determined to fight it as best we could
i stood beside you , hands held tight promising to win the fight
I watched you dying before my eyes
try always not to cry a shadow of the man you once were
eyes so empty almost not there.
then our luck it finally changed.
drs told us no more pain battle over
you had won excited that i had you back
the man i loved more than life
how very wrong, could never have guessed
this stranger stood before me yet
he looked like the man id loved for so long
instead i saw the angry eyes self destruction ,
something else bitter, angry,twisted still,
i miss the man you once were and
even now ill sit and stare see if he is even there
cancer effects in many ways,
some it takes others it changes
and if i see the man i loved,
its now too late for me to say i love you with all i am
cos cancer came and changed me too.
It took my heart away from you