One year ago today,
I got a phone call that changed my life
a phone call that everyone dreds
I found out my bestfriend had passed away
I question myself everyday
why did he take you away
why?
what was so special about you and I would think about it everyday then I realized it
*Everything* you were perfect
you always put people ahead of yourself
I just cant believe that it has been one year already
I did not recieve my birthday wishes from you
my halloween wishes
my random phone calls
nothing I have not seen or spoken to my vanisha pish in one WHOLE year
not even when I moved there was not a I did not speak to you and now I have no choice but to accept it
I need to accpet the fact that you will not be calling me
not seeing me
not being around me at all because you are not here anymore
va I miss you so much
when I went to your mosulium on angel date
I was expecting it just to be me, Jessie and Eva
it was so amazing that everyone was there
it was like a miracle
we all went there at the same time
im sure it was your doing! you wanted us all to be there
just like the way its suppose to be
as I approched your resting spot tears could not stop falling from my eyes
it brought back memories
I miss you so much
I saw your family
your mommy, your daddy, Keena and Joanne and everyone else
Kenna made me cry so much
and Joanne kept telling me that she was always thinking bout me
its becayse we were always together
where I was you were
where you were I was
I cant believe I did not come to your house that night I wish I did
there are so many things I wish I could have changed but its to late now
tonight were going to have your one year mass
let me tell you thats not goning to be fun
your mother made pictures of you and there so beautiful
im finally getting that pic your family promised me
I just wish I could turn back time but I cant
just take care of yourself and save me a spot in heaven right beside you
because I cant wait to be with you again
no words will ever be able to describe the emptiness I feel without you in my life
nor will any words describe the pain I feel without you
R.I.P VAVI
Jenny + Vavi
=
Bestfriends FOREVER!
