12:33am
So i've been talking to this one guy for a while right. We're so into each other. I thought I made it clear to some people that I am not interested in meeting or hanging out or whatever.
So, I got this random text out of nowhere right? From some dude I hadn't spoken to years ago. He wanted to catch up and say hey, and just wanted to know what I was up to. When I told him I was seeing someone, he somehow flipped b/c he thought he could just appear out of nowhere and sweep me off my feet. I stopped talking to him b/c he was a bit too possessive. I mean a little bit is fine as long as it's in all fun and games, but c'mon now, too much is too much.
He still hasn't done much to better himself. I am a young woman who knows what she likes and what she wants. :D anywho, he tries to spit out stupid one liners hoping they'd make me laugh, which only got me irritated. I finally told him to leave me alone, why text out of nowhere and expect for me to wanna hang out after like seriously 4-5 yrs. This isn't high school!
That was the end of that story. Just thought I'd write it down.
Oh and I've been writing more often. Maybe I'll share my stories and/or poems and songs. Some sound all weird, but when you read the background to it then you'd understand and identify with more.
In the meanwhile.... I don't know how much I like the guy I'm seeing. I know the intensity is there. I know there is passion and fire and everything.... We're both on the same level yet at different paces. I feel as if I can and am able to catch up with him but its not about a race.
I've been hurt in the past, so I kind of feel weird sometimes when I call him my "boyfriend"... just don't know why.... Maybe b/c it's been forever and a day since I had a decent relationship. I mean we both know where we stand and where we want it to go. IDK... maybe it's just me. *sighs* He's charming, very responsible, pays attention to details, loves to hang out with me, always includes me in his plans, is making an effort for his little ones to meet me, etc. Yeah, he is a single dad, and what? He takes care of them, clothes them, feeds them, etc. They always look happy when they're around him. The littlest one is too small to understand what's going on, but then again who knows. But I won't go into details.
It's rather late right now. But hopefully, I will say this for sure. I want him to be there to celebrate my bday. I wanna be there to celebrate his. :D
Liking Unconditionally Is Simple......... Loving U Is Symbolic..... Lusting Us Is Sexy :)
12:45am