Oh my fucking god, I seriously do not know how much longer I can deal with shit. Its like no matter what I do nothing is ever good enough for anyone, EVER! And god fucking forbid people be honest and straight forward anymore. Everyone has an angle they are working, or some agenda. I could seriously go on and on and on about all the stupid, manipulative, self-centered bullshit I have to deal with on a daily basis, but seriously why bother. It would change nothing. It doesn't matter how good a person i try to be, how caring or loving or supportive...
I mean, really, am I such a horrible person? I figure I must be since I am continually dumped on in some way. I checked my pockets for bullshit magnets and came up empty, so it must be me I guess. Just one big bullshit magnet. It seriously does not pay to be a nice guy. Nice guy = door mat.
And before some people jump to the conclusion that maybe this is about them... if it were, believe me, you'd have known long before I decided to vent here. I just need to let off some steam here rather than blow up at people that don't deserve it (or do deserve it but I choose not to blow up on because in this instance they are miraculously innocent).
Just don't know what to do anymore. No matter what I do, how hard I try, its never good enough.