My thoughts are that we are told from the time we are tiny in all venues constantly that we are special and handsome in our own ways until we become numb to the fact. And, as we mature, and are subjected to the REAL world a cynicism is created in many of us that breeds devaluation of self. Atop it all, many of us will never live up to the physical image purported as sexy everywhere we look.
It seems to me you are having a moment of epiphany, and you should revel in your newfound strength of purpose or confidence in your physical magnetism.
