So... Im really starting to get upset with having to work every single night, and going to school every afternoon. I miss having a social life. Seeing Chris is becomming rare... and it's devestating me. I hate going one hour without him... when i look ahead and know i wont be able to hold him again untill wednesday... i start to get extremally depressed. Although its not a year anniversary, today marks 5 months he has been with me... and i've honestly never felt this way about a man before. Not even with my last boyfriend of 4 years. Theres something about Chris that makes me feel whole... and i have to somehow face the next few days without him. I know most of you probebly think me a complete lameass... but i dont care. I cannot wait for me and him to both be making enough money to move in with eachother... just so every night I can fall asleep next to him. I can feel myself being wrapped in his arms. I love that. I love the kisses on my forhead... everything.
why does being an adult have to suck so much? Work is over bearing... school is boring... I havent seen Chris in 1 day and i miss him...
-sighs and looks at a calander- 5 more days untill i can see him again... 5 more days...
