hi
Current mood: enthralled
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural
It's night time. I figured I'd post something, since that's what I do at night. I probably write about this a lot, but I really wish I could solve everyone's or atleast most people's problems. Other than semi-minimall mental and sleeping stuff, my life is pretty damn good. I wish I could somehow share that with everyone.
The girl in sandy is becoming annoying. She acted like she really wanted to meet me and stuff, and then is always busy or whatever. So, it's just like whatever, I guess. There's lots of stuff that might be happening this weekend. Lots of different options I guess. Ofcourse, what I want to do, is the same thing as always, spend my weekend in bountiful. I have homework and stuff to do with school too. Even when I plann on just spending a few hrs there, I never want to leave. I just leave when I almost have to, or whatever.
My ex wants to hangout, I think I'll be over at my brother's house sometime on saturday night, there's another person that I was going to try to hangout with sometime around the weekend. Maybe I can combine some of them? Hangout with someone and my ex, or bring my ex, or the girl in bountiful to my brother's house or something. I guess I just see what happens.
People are still afraid of me getting hurt. There's no real use of me being afraid, it's not like it will stop it from happening, or change what I'm going to do. I have to follow my feelings and stuff. Sometimes it's better to be hurt after knowing I tried, than being hurt when I didn't try, and/or out of regret from not trying at all. I think I'm "in love". Maybe with more than one person. It's hard to see either of them working out though. So basically intense pain is inevitable. I'll live probably though. I guess I'm just a masochist for getting myself invlolved in these situations. I don't think I'm really trying to. It's just a coincadense? However as people might say, " the common factor is me ". ( someone elses words, that's why they are in quotes. ) Life is strange sometimes.
I have an appointment tomarrow, then I have to take a test. It shouldn't be that bad. Then I need to call a bunch of people to see where I can get the fastest appointment with a psychatrist and get a sleep study done. It's going to be a busy emotional weekend. fun fun....
