ok wow i fucked so bad in the last 2 months i guess u could say.where do i start ok no name to be siad i know for a fact i have feeling for to people at the same time and wow the feeling are so diffenter i know that much because the both make me feel diffenter when iam with them. the same ? keep come up over and over again to u want a bf or do u want to stay single and trusted me single is what i want to be cause it so much easyer but when u have feeling for two people it hard and the both make me feel so good to be around them but iam not trying to push anyone in to being with me i just love hang out with both of them i just wish it didn't have to be as hard as it feel iam not realy out to hurt anyone i mean come on iam 24 years old iam still trying to find my self but it make it hard when feeling are there and u don't want them it be a hole lot easyer if i could just have no feeling for anyone like i use to i mean i could hang out with someone and nothing i mean nothing no feeling what so ever but it feel 10 times hard when your in the middle and there 2 on the out side of all this and all u know is u have feeling for them both and u have no real fucking clue what the fuck is goin throw there minds about all this. so i think iam just going to shut my self off from both for now and go back to worrying about work and school like i told one them last night i just want to be happy and keep moveing fawrd with my life and makeing a life for myself and to anwerns your ? do u want to be lonly and by your self for ever no i don't but if it mean pushing people out my life right now to worry about me and take care me and only me and make sure i need to get where i want to be then so be it alest i will i have my friends and the life i want with no man help or stopping me from get where i need to be in my life so i maybe unhappy for a lil well but in the end i will have everything i have ever want and i can say i did it on my own and i didn't have a man to help me get everything i want cause i won't every be put back in that kind of spot again i will never ask a man for help to get where i want to get so sorry if this seem fucked up but if iam to busy for u it cause i don't want the confussen in my life right now maybe on a better day when iam more sure of everything then we can talk again but for now iam worryed about me and only me sorry to say and plus no one out of this will get hurt if i walk away now. so iam not saying good bye iam just saying talk to u later when i feel iam ready and i can handle it.
