You say you love me, and I know I love you
But you say things to me that just aren't true
"I can't live without you"
"I'll do anything for you dear"
You say only things you think I want to hear
What about honesty? Where did that go?
Am I here just for sex? Am I just your hoe?
That's the only time I feel special to you
Feel needed, feel pretty, like you want me, too
If this is real love, and true love it seems
Then why do you lie and why are you so mean?
I love to love you. You mean the world to me
So why do you hurt me? Can't you see?
I don't want you to leave, and I'm afraid that you will
Every time you're gone, my world just stands still
I don't want to hurt and I don't want to cry
What's wrong with giving a damn about me? Do you think you could try?
If your will is strong, and you want this to last
Then give it your best effort and forget the past
I know it takes time, so why not start now?
You know what to do, don't ask me "how?"
So why can't we focus on what lies ahead?
Or is it not worth it? Is this relationship dead?
I know I've been wrong
And not said things that I should
But you started that battle
And I'm done now for good.
October 2005