I only have myself to blame.
I try to change, but only stay the same.
Always a fool for the game.
Burned my soul with flame.
Nothing but ash remain.
To keep trying makes me insane.
If I took a bullet to the brain,
Would anyone's tears fall like rain.
No, because that's only caused by pain.
I've seen many tears fall,
Because I've caused them all.
He hates his life. He hates his past. He hates who he is. He hates the thought of wondering how much worse he may become. He may be worthy of being loved, but not worthy of happiness, or being with someone he loves . He feels destined to be forever in the shadows, watching happiness and life unfold around him. No longer able to be a part of that world. He has become nothing but a phantom in the shadows.