I'm sorry if I haven't responded to something that you wrote or if I'm not on here as much...I haven't really been in a lost cherry mood...
so, an update, California was a lot of fun...I'm really happy that I sucked it up and went out to see Justin, he's always a good friend, a pro at cheering me up, getting my mind of things and reminding me that I rock and people are stupid.
I got some not so great news when I got of the plane coming home though. My great grandpa died...there was a viewing last wednesday...which sucked because I didn't know if was a viewing until I got there. For those you that don't know what a viewing is, it's when they lay the body out so that you can see it one last time before they are cremated. I'm not a big fan of viewings. It makes me really upset to see someone that I had great memories of alive, dead. It becomes the last thing I remember, and I hate that. And I got sucked into going to one.
The worst part it, I haven't got all my crying out. I've been holding it back so much to be strong for everyone else that now I just can't cry. And I really want to.
Well, after the viewing, I ended up getting sick with whatever my little sister had. This entailed throwing up everything that I ate or drank, including water, for two days and I'm still feeling really weak, getting dizzy spells, etc, but I can't afford to go to the doctor right now. And I have to work again today, had a 9 hour shift yesterday, and I tired, and I feel like hell, I'm just not having a very good year.
I think I'll just erase this year from my memory. I'd be good with that.
