seeing but not registering...
listening but not comprehending...
touching but not feeling...
can't tell when the day turns to night...
the minute and second hands blend together...
disorientation...confusion...
when one plus one is still one...
two minus two is still two...
felt like a looney tune cartoon...
bulldozed and flattened yet somehow...
managed to do the paper thin walk...
butterflies...fluttering...in my tummy...
and pray tell me...
how is it possible?
for i didn't swallow neither egg nor larvae nor pupae...
alas...my fingers ached...
to comb through your long silky hair...
cascading like a shimmering rainbow...
the apprehension...the frustration...
of not knowing...and maybe never will...
looks like this old familiar feeling...
will be locked up and buried...
in the deepest abyss of my heart...
