one last poem for the nite..
since i jus wrote it... 4give the shortness of it jus know its how my heart achez az of this minute
The First Day I Saw You
The first day I saw you
You were like a dream true.
The first day I saw you
I knew i loved you.
The first day I saw you
love was my world.
The first day I saw you
I just became your girl.
And now that you know
you're all inside my mind.
You took advantage of that
and left my heart behind.
And though I will always love
And cherrish every minute w/you
The pain of not having you
Pain of all you made me believe.
The trust I once again had in words
Simply hurts & right now
Makes me feel as though
Now I regret...
the first day I saw you.
Had I known the pain it'd bring
Or been prepared for the heartache
The emptiness of not having you
The unsure feeling of not knowing
If or when I will ever see you again.
Though I see you every time I close my eyes.
Feel you near me when I lay in the bed we shared.
Ache for the last day we touched,
Missing the last kiss at the bus station.
Hating leaving you there cuz something
Something... something said I'd never see you again.
Now I know why...
Though I have regrets of the first day I saw you,
My life would not have had at least the small
Change in it to make me believe I was worth loving... keeping... having.
I was worth the time...
The actual REAL emotion of being LOVED
Someone who understood & accepted me for ME...
Actualy loved me as such.
Yet, once again... just like everyone before you
I'm left.. alone, shattered, torn apart inside
Missing someone I will never have again
I know that now & no matter how much it hurts...
Though I knew the risk of losing you was there
After all, they all leave me at some time...
I'd give so much...
Just to have that day...
The first day I saw you.
I love you more than words can say,
More than measure can show,
More than I realized I was able to.
So the pain I now have from loving you
Is also the joy I have from loving you.
So the first day I saw you
I knew I'd love you but I also knew I'd lose you
And the first day I saw you
Is worth the pain of the last day I saw you
Knowing I'd never see you again...
I love you muchez
~Tazy~
