my head numb with agony
as I spin
this dance isn't for you, honey
it's all me.
And I'll let me beat into the walls
and watch with acute interest...
as my blood pours to the ground in torrents...
I didn't know it could come out that way..
only in movies...
only in God of War..
I laugh and fly into the concrete again...
I can't feel me as you scream...
but I feel you breathing...
hot and seductive?
I laugh, and moan...
I'm not alone...
but sometimes I wanna be..
but not when I wanna be...I am.
y'know?
I doubt.
I doubt existence...yours and mine..
cause such peace would be too divine..
I'm too numb to feel this good...
so I'll run for the wall again
and hope for sweet..release...
death?
how would I know...
...how would I know..