As i sit here and think about all and everything,
I wonder what i was seeing, blindly it seems.
The end has came near and took away the light,
The end has suffocated me and took away my fight.
I give up i cant take it, i push it away for good.
I sit i cry i get over it, because i should.
Another lesson learned, another scar on my heart.
I never should of fell,i told myself that at the start.
But does life listen? when you speak outloud.
I tried to be fair, but it working both ways i guess werent aloud.
Now i realize tragic as it seems.
That the end, really was meant to be.
Life is so complicated, sometimes it drives me insane.
How come the ending always has to end in pain?
Where is the happiness, it must of flow away.
Where is the joy, that i felt back in the days?
Where is my mind, why do i feel like i do?
Where is my heart, if its no longer with you?
They say pain and suffering makes you grow strong.
I say they bring you to your knees questioning what did i do wrong?
I know right now i am struggling to come up with words.
I feel beat up and broken, lying dead on a curb.
The thoughts surround my head, as memories flood my brain.
I close my eyes quickly, clutching my fist trying to stop the pain.
Too many questions, not enough answers.
I sit here shaking, chain smoking, working on lung cancer.
But WHATEVER, lifes a bitch then you die.
Welcome to the end, u know the reason why.