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This is something that's been in there for the past 7 years...
I have things going through my head that I need to get out. Some days I wish that my brain was like a computer that I could just simply delete out what I don't want there. But I know that I can't, so I just block them and bottle them up. It's time the genie came out. I am so sick of being bottled up. I hate seeing you like this. You should not let anyone treat you this way. If he cares as he says he does, then he should let everyone know. I think that he has a hidden agenda. He's using you. He's made you cry, he's made you sad. No one should make you feel that way and you know it. You know what it feels like to be loved, wanted, needed, and desired. You remember those feelings. Don't settle for someone that makes you feel the way you do. He's only out for himself. He cares nothing for you. Look what he has done to you. He doesn't want you to be you, he wants you to be something that you are not. You know that there is someone that most definitely loves you for you and will take you at the moment that you are to call and give the word. He does not want to see you sad or mad, nor does he ever want to see you cry, unless it's out of happiness. He never would hurt you. He only wants you happy and to be loved by someone that is so deserving of it. Let go of this. It's time to take a stand. No one should ever bring you down darling. You are much better than he could ever deserve. You have a heart with love, caring, and honesty. No one should ever take that away from you. No one should ever try to make you change to what they want. If they want that, then they need to move on. You are a wonderful person. There are so many people that will agree. But not all of them matter or count. The ones that do are those that are close to your heart and I know who that is. I will never tell. You don't need this. You are to much of a sweet heart to be taken advantage of like this. Don't let this happen. Stand your ground. I know what it is that you want. I believe that he's using you for whatever personal gain he has. You don't need that. Just another sob story that needs to go to Maury, maybe even Jerry. I hate the way he makes you feel. I hate him. Things should be about the both of you, not just one of you. You both have feelings, you both have something at stake, you both have something to lose. I know that you stand to lose more than he does. Please don't ever lose you over anyone. You have so many that do love you and want to see the best for you. I know. You stay strong. I can't tell you what to do... I can only try to guide you the best that I can. I am here so that you can let out what's bothering you. If there is a feeling that you can't seem to shake, then don't try to. It's there for a reason. I know that you don't want to be like him. I know that's not you. He got in your head. It took a while, but we got him out. No one should ever get in your head like that. He used you. He lied to you. He was never there when you needed him. He cheated on you. He made you do things you didn't want to do. He made you cry, he made you sad. He has no control or power over you. Let it go. Please. HE HAS NO POWER OVER YOU! He has nothing. He is nothing. He will never be anything but a thorn in your side. Take that demon down. Don't let him have you that way. You are better than that. You deserve better than that. You know it, he knows it. But who do you listen to? If not me, if not your friends, if not him.... Then please listen to what your heart tells you. I know it's hard. But you have that wall to provide protection for you. You should never let it or your guard down. You take care of yourself and those children. Let it go. Stop letting him take you away from you.
