So seth has been around and its been so goddamn wonderful having him back, ive missed him more than i realized there is this sense of peace i get having him here again but alass he is leaving soon so that makes me greedy and want him to spend all his time here with me because he is leaving again and that also feels me with an emptyness of losing someone again... he will come back through time and tiem again and see me but im losing a friend again.... Cliff is or was upset about him being here bu yeah i understand.. i look at seth and still see the person that i really loved and wanted but now i look at him and see the person i always knew but something is differetnt.... sigh i dont know today and yesterday i felt this over whelming sense of lonelyness and emptyness and the feeling that, im always going to be .....
